Disenchantment

Have you ever been at a point in your life when you've grown disenchanted with just about everything around you? And what do you do when you know the source of that discontent and it just happens to be your job, your sole source of income to support yourself and your children? It's not like I can give up my job easily - although the economy where I live isn't all that bad, it's a damn risky thing to do as a single parent. I get paid well for what I do and I think I'm more than competent at what I do, it's just that the environment, the politicking is killing me slowly. I don't kiss a**, I don't suck up, I come to work and I do my job and do it well. The problem is, I firmly believe that while they recognize that I have the intellectual abilities, I don't have "the look" and I don't have the people/verbal skills they're looking for. Yes, I'm a bigger woman and I'm an introvert - does that mean they think I'm not capable of things? Or that I don't present the full package they're looking for? I don't work in the sales industry, I don't work in retail, I work in government. I'm a civil servant and I'm stressed. And sadly, the powers that be don't care. They want the numbers to be right, no matter how irrational the means to reach these numbers are. Logic doesn't prevail and that, my folks, is what you voted for. Myself, I voted for the opposition. Not that it helps any.....